I Was Then I Wasn't

I've been a bit quiet over here.

I was pregnant and now I'm not.

I was in complete shock when I took the pregnancy test on February 5th and it was a strong positive. I knew I had ovulated but I thought we had missed the window. Apparently not and we were ecstatic. Ecstatic because this pregnancy happened with no help, it happened like it was supposed to. It happened like it does for non infertiles.

I called my ob because I wanted the confirmation of a blood test like I had with Reagan. I knew I probably wouldn't get a 2 or 3 but there was something about having that confirmation. That definitive answer. I had my blood test on February 6th. I got the call that afternoon with a number of 674. Such a high number and I again was overjoyed.

The nausea and exhaustion was there. The all day nausea. The wanting to take a nap in the middle of the day, as soon as I got home from work and going to bed after I put Reagan to bed. I forgot just how tired you are during the first trimester.

And then I tried out those Clear Blue tests. The ones that tell you how far along you are. The first one I did say 2-3 weeks. It made sense. So I went with it. And I took another and it said the same thing. Still thought it made sense. So then because I was addicted I bought another box. This time it again said 2-3 weeks. I began to worry because it shouldn't say that anymore. It should have said 3+. But I still had nausea, I was bloated, I was exhausted so that test must be wrong.

So just to reassure my paranoid self, I was able to secure an ultrasound earlier than normal with my ob. It was scheduled for February 26th with my initial appointment the following day.


To be continued...

And Just Like That

I have a 2 year old...

And I'm not sure how that happened...

I now have a child that verbalizes very clearly when she needs something. We need a drink, we need a snack, we need this toy or that book, we need to watch Mickey Mouse or Super Why.

I now have a child that says her letters and we are working on numbers.

I have a child that will bring you book after book after book and have you read them.

I have a child that will read books to herself.

I have a child that has a temper that is a combination of her mother and fathers. Who struggles hearing the word NO. She prefers to do things herself even though she can't.

I have a child that has no fear. We will crawl, stand and jump off anything. She has fallen and cried but a simple are you okay, and life goes on.

I have a child that looks at everything with wonder in her eyes. The mere sight of something new and she wants to know all about it. I love that look of wonder and I hope it never leaves.

I have a child that I am blessed to call mine.

March, Are We There Yet?

Things change fast, decisions we thought we were good with can be changed at the drop of a hat.

Well one decision we thought we were good with was waiting till January to go the RE. That would get us through the holidays and we could start 2015 off with a bang.

Well after a lot more talking and figuring, March is when we are going to the RE. We have 2 pretty big farm payments to make in January and February. I'm not looking to put more financial strain on so Matt and I both decided that it would be best to get those out of the way and then we can focus on baby #2. Now of course all this is thrown out the window should we be blessed before that!

I know I say it almost every post I do but how is it seriously December 8th??? In less than a month I will have a two year old. Believe me the terrible two's have already hit. We have meltdowns over the silliest things. Now I realize, to her they aren't silly but having a meltdown because I won't let her have an oatmeal cream pie, Trix or chips before supper. Sometimes it is hard not to laugh because she looks so pathetic! If I do laugh I make sure I am turned away from her or I walk out of the room. Matt is horrible about not laughing.

Finally,

Christmas pictures this year! She was so much more into them and the photog's set was beautiful!

 I had to show this one, well because Reagan looks super cute and Matt, super creepy

 A much better family picture

Her dress, $20 from Zulily

Here Mama was what she was saying

 This face, complete hand caught in the cookie jar

Be still my heart because my baby isn't a baby anymore

 She loves to rock-n-ride and this fake snow was so slippery she was having a BLAST!

I never knew how much I loved your daddy, till I saw how much he loved you!

Picking pictures for the Christmas card was hard! But thanks to Pampers rewards we got Christmas cards super cheap from Shutterfly. I will share the final card once I get it!

How is it November 1st?

This post has had several title changes, because every time I think about writing it I realize the date has changed.

How can it possibly be November 1st already? How are we full steam ahead to the holidays? This just seems absolutely mind boggling.

What else is mind boggling is that I haven't blogged in so long. That is what harvest does to me. I have no time to sit down and write anything much less make my brain focus enough to put a post together. Well, harvest is still going on but I'm forcing myself to get this post done.

My No Spend September went fairly well. I had a few times I bought things that weren't an absolute necessity but for the most part I feel like I should make this an ever other month habit. Trying to keep finances in order is not a fun part of being an adult.

With that being said and Christmas literally knocking on our door, my goal is to not put anything on a credit card that I cannot turn around and pay off. I do not want a Christmas shopping hangover in the new year. Of course there will be more on Christmas later, because we have to get through the month of November.

Other exciting news, we are officially ttc for baby #2. For now just temping but come the first of the year if we have no luck we will head back down to Dr. S. Not wasting too much time messing around this time!

I realize this post is so scatter brained but I do have some other posts planned such as my working mom guilt, raising a daughter and such.

For now though I will leave you with some pictures of the cutest Elmo I've ever seen =)

No Spend September- GYSTS14

I really have no clue if this is a thing or not but I am making it!

I have an online shopping problem. Like big time.

Slow at work, hop on zulily.com or oldnavy.com. Sometimes even etsy.com. It just depends on my mood. However, this browsing does eventually lead to purchasing which isn't good on my wallet.

I have a goal of being debt free (student loans and credit cards) by 35. So therefore I have to keep myself from buying the non essentials.

Sure those yoga pants are nice but do I really need them?

Okay so here is the list of things I am allowed to buy:
-Groceries (Obvi)
-Diapers (Although potty training seems to be getting closer!)
-Gas for vehicles
-Emergency Situations (God willing there are none)
-Medicine

That is it. Nothing more nothing less.

Also if you read my other blog www.selfishmomma.blogspot.com you will see that I am Getting My Sh*t Together September. This is just an extension of that. Not only did I slack on working out and eating right I've slacked on my finances too which is not good.

So here is my plan. Putting it out there for the world to read.

1.5 Years

1.5 years ago we welcomed a healthy 8lb 9oz 20 inch long perfect baby girl into this year. A year and a half ago. When you say it  like that I feel like she has been here forever. Trying to remember a time when she wasn't here is hard.

Bad mom moment happened for her doctor appointment. I was at work busy getting stuff finished for a meeting the next day. Get a text from the sitter, did you forget about Reagan's doctor appointment? Look at the clock 3:56. Her appointment was at 4. Thankfully they were still able to get her in. Our pediatrician's office just hired a CNP and that is who we saw this time. She was awesome. Love her!

She weighed in at 28.4lbs and was 33.5 inches long. Her head circumfrance was 18.5. She is healthy and no issues. We are so lucky and blessed!

Here are a few sneak peaks of her 18 month session. They are amazing and I am going to have such a hard time picking them!

 The rest can be viewed at the photographers site www.photographybyluann.com then click on view proofs.

A Day in the Life...Weekday

I've seen a few of these around the blogosphere and they were interesting. Interesting in that how very different our lives our but still center around family and our little ones. So I decided to jump on board, here is my week day edition.

3:53am- First alarm goes off for me so I can get my butt to the gym. I usually snooze this one at least twice

4:15- Second alarm goes off. I snooze this one once

4:25- Finally roll myself out of bed and get dressed, take my pre-workouts and have my spark ready to go with me

4:45-4:50- Out the door headed to the gym

5:00-6:00- M/W is spin/lift
                  T/TH- Toning/Cardio
                  Friday- Freaky Friday- meaning whatever J is in the mood for. Sometimes a lot of cardio,                    sometimes a lot of lifting, maybe more spin.

6:15ish- home and headed to the shower. Matt and Reagan are usually still asleep. Heck even Zoe isn't up yet.

6:45- out of the shower and make-up is done. Attempt to wake the sleepyheads. Sometimes it works other times I have to go back a few times.

7:00- Finish getting ready, pack my lunch, lay out clothes for Reagan, get her cereal and milk ready, keep Matt moving (because he sometimes gets sucked into Thomas the Train with Reagan).

7:20-7:30- Out the door to drop Reagan off at the sitters and head to work.

8:00-4:30- Daily Grind

4:50- Pick Reagan up and head home.

5:00- Figure out what Matt is doing and how late he will be. This answer will depend on the season and how busy he is in the shop. During spring planting, he won't get in till sometimes after 8 or 9. In the winter he is done by 6. Depending on his answer, I will either begin to make supper for all of us or just Reagan and I. His answer will also determine if I get an extra gym sesh in on Monday and Wednesday.

7:30- Supper is over and done, dishes cleaned up, laundry started, maybe some minor cleaning or maybe we go outside and play. Either way about this time a bath happens and PJ's are put on.

8:00-9:00- Little miss usually goes to bed anywhere between these times. If she is extra tired it will be earlier. If she is full of it, a little later.

9:00-10:00- TV time/reading/catching up on social media while Matt usually falls asleep on the floor.

10:00-10:30- Head to bed to do it all over again