A Baby Changes Everything

Christmas Eve, already!! Seriously where did the year go?

I cannot wait for Reagan's first Christmas tomorrow. I know she won't know what is going on and she will have more fun with the paper and boxes but it is still something I will treasure forever. I've waited for this day when I get to have my own little family on Christmas morning.

I am a huge sucker for the traditional Christmas songs, Silent Night and The First Noel are my absolute favorites. However, the other day I had CMT on and this song came on. By the time it was over I was crying, tears streaming down my face. I don't get religious on this blog because I have my views and you all have yours and we may not agree and that is okay but this song, yea, wow.

It is true, a baby changes everything.



Here is our first family Christmas card. Some people will be getting theirs after Christmas but it is the thought that counts right?

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View the entire collection of cards.

Here in just a week I will also have a 1 year old. Yea more on that later.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Introducing...

So remember a while ago that I mentioned I was working on a little project? Well, I introduced it to the world via pinterest this morning and now I am sharing it with all of you. I decided to start a second blog. This new blog will chronicle my weight loss journey. I want this blog to remain what it is, an infertility, parenting, pictures of an adorable baby and sometime in the future the story to baby #2. Therefore, I decided to start the second blog. Of course I will still be updating this one along with the other (call me crazy right!) Without further ado, I would like to invite you all to look at

www.selfishmomma.blogspot.com

Christmas Pictures and Bad Baby

There are way to many talented photographers in this area. Seriously, it makes it hard to choose who does what pictures and such. I love love love the photog who does Reagan's milestone ones. I probably have said it before but she did our wedding so she does hold a special place in my heart. I will continue to use her no doubt. But then, there is a young and super talented photographer who is going to be doing my brother's wedding next June. I've stalked her on facebook and have always liked her work. She offers a lot of mini sessions fairly cheap so I love using her for those! She is the one who did the mommy and me and her Halloween. When she offered a Christmas mini for $100 I jumped on it! Normally we don't do Christmas cards but when you have a little cutie you have to show her off! Those of you that are facebook friends with me have already seen them but for those of you who aren't (please feel free to add me!) here are my favorites from the session.

Reagan is such a chatter box these days.  Not everything is coherent but she does say some things very clearly beyond momma and dada. Puppy and kitty are favorites, along with Kate. Her newest one which she has picked up at the sitters is bad baby. When you ask her how she was at the sitter she answers bad baby. I promise she isn't a bad baby all the time (except when she took an ornament off J's tree and chucked it!) but to hear her say it is adorable.

9 Month Pictures

Seriously, 9 month pictures. The next ones will be 1 year. I'm not sure if I'm mentally prepared for that. Although, I did see in an email that I get that talks about the milestones your baby has this quote...

It kills you to see them grow up. 

But I guess it would kill you quicker if they didn't.

Barbara Kingsolver

What a powerful statement. It seriously made me stop in my tracks this morning as I was reading it. I couldn't imagine not having that wiggly, giggly, sometimes cranky, Ms. Independent little girl.

So back to happy thoughts, here is the preview of her pictures along with the link to see them all!

www.photographybyluann.com Then click on view proofs and her session was in October.

 

Bullet Points

I know this sounds like a broken record but I have a few posts that I start and don't finish due to time or thoughts change or what have you. So right now, instead of a complete post, bullet points are all I have.

*I have a 10 month old, double digits. Yea I'm not sure how it happened either.
*She has 6 teeth and is working on some more. Matt says soon she will be asking for steak for supper.
*She stands on her own, a little wobbly but stands.
*She took her first steps, at the sitters. For the first time I didn't want to be a working mom anymore. I beat myself up pretty good over that but that guilt is for another post.
*Harvest is winding down, thank goodness
*How is it November already?
*We have family pictures next Saturday, I have yet to find Reagan a Christmas dress.
*Reagan says, mama, dada, puppy, kitty (well more like ki but we think it means kitty), up, all gone, bad, bye bye
*When you tell her no, she laughs.
*I'm still reading your blogs even though I haven't been commenting lately. The same goes for the facebook groups I'm a part of.
*I am working on a new project, maybe someday it will get finished.

Now for some pictures from Halloween, the cutest ladybug I've ever seen!

Have a great weekend!

Tuesday Thoughts

Thanks to Pinterest.


Harvest is here. Say a prayer that it gets over soon and we can return to our normal lives!



I need some time with my cows, seriously! Time to decompress and be around things that make me happy.

 
Yup. Nothing more needs said.

 
And finally for some giggles because I swear they all come out during harvest...

Happy Tuesday!

It Was the Best of Times, It Was the Worst of Times...

Pumping that is.

Today is my first full day of not pumping and while I am okay with the decision, but I didn't get there overnight. It took me over a month to decide that this was the best time to quit pumping. I knew with harvest approaching it would be near impossible. Plus, it wouldn't be fair to the other counterparts in the office to leave them hanging.

When I made the decision to quit pumping I went back and forth quite a few times. I placed a lot of guilt on myself which was completely unwarranted I know but nonetheless I did. My guilt came from the feeling of quitting. I have never been a quitter, even on certain things or jobs but I was raised that if you started something you finished it. Yet here I was, giving up before I reached my goal of one year. I was quitting. Irrational yes, a bit dramatic of course but this is how I felt. Then I started thinking of other things. I don't have to pack the pump, make sure I have enough storage bags, cleaning pieces and parts, it feels liberating. For example, I have to work today and be at work by 8. My brother and future sis in law are watching Reagan and they go to 7:30 mass so I had to have Reagan to my parents by 7.  I got to sleep an extra half hour because I didn't have to pump this morning.  Plus I didn't have to drag another bag out the door. Score!

So tonight I have to clean the pump and I am going to put it away in the closet and hoping that I will need it again.