Saturday, December 31, 2011

New Years Eve as Sober Sally

Happy New Year's Eve! Hard to believe another year has flown by.  I never believed everyone that said that as you get old the years fly by but man is it true.  2011 was a great year don't get me wrong.  I still love my job, my family is still amazing and I learned a lot about my friends, which ones will be around and which ones it is better to not have around.  This past year I said goodbye to my Grandpa Kiesel, my last grandparent.  Sad as it was, he was ready to go home and be with my grandma.  They had a 50+ year marriage, one feat that I CANNOT wait to accomplish with Matt.  Having Matt by my side was very comforting through that difficult time. 

2011 also brought my official diagnosis of PCOS.  A tough pill to swallow but I was glad to have a name for what was going on in my crazy body.  Two failed cycles later we are on number three and here is hoping to good news in 2012! 

This year also marked another notch in my battle with my weight.  Not making a resolution, more of a promise that in 2012 I WILL change and take control of this weight once and for all. 

So I'm off to spend New Years Eve as Sober Sally so Matt and I both make it home safe.  Cheers to 2012!

Friday, December 30, 2011

The Start

So here goes nothing.  I've never blogged, never thought about blogging until I was recently introduced to some other blogs about woman dealing with PCOS, infertility, weightloss and both at the same time.  I was officially diagnosed with PCOS in November although I've never had a regular cycle except when I was on BC.  I was on BC for almost 10 years because quite frankly I liked being regular and I liked not being able to have kids.  However, after 2 years of marriage and earning my MBA Matt and I decided what was it going to hurt.  Now, growing up on a farm I understood a long time ago how fertility happens so I knew nothing was going to happen till AF came and she came like a hurricane in October and she stayed for over a month.  Heaviest, most painful, scariest AF of my life, well at least that I can remember.  I called the doctor and they put me on Metformin and Chlomid.  First month, no ovulation so we upped the dose of Chlomid, second month no ovulation so we are upping the Chlomid and now we are waiting on AF to show herself again.  SHOCKER, she is late! I'm giving it till Tuesday before calling to see where we go from here.  So that is the short of my struggle thus far.  I know it has only been two months and I have stayed fairly positive.  I'm hoping this blog will be a place to cry, laugh, vent or just ramble that I sometimes tend to do, according to Matt. 

Now onto the weight issues.  Like I said before I've always struggled with my weight but what I wouldn't give to be as thin as I was back in the day when I thought I was enormous.  Either way, college came and that started the hill downwards, especially after graduation.  Skip ahead after failed attempts at weightloss, on again off again gym memberships and excuses.  While talking to my mom after learning that I didn't ovulate, in her normal mother tone, I know you don't want to hear this but you know your weight affects this and as if right on cue I fire back I know I know, (in a very agitated voice).  Well that was the final straw.  So here goes nothing, for real, I'm going to make this stick.  I will update my stats after Tuesday when I can see what my measurements were from my Tuesday weightloss Group. 

So there, an introduction into my life and while I know this blog won't solve the issues but hopefully it will make me feel better.