Friday, December 28, 2012

Woh Baby!

So I had my 38 week appointment today, No double duty this week due to the holidays but that is fine with me. Today, in stead of a NST we got to have an ultrasound. This is obviously the very last one before Peanut gets here. Everything looked great with her, she is head down and ready to rock and roll. However, when they gave us her weight measurement is measuring at 8lbs 13oz. Umm yea hello big healthy baby right! My plan the entire time was to have her vaginally which still could happen but this was the first time the Dr. mentioned C-section. Obviously, if my or her health/safety were at risk it would be a no brainer. However, I would still like to try vaginal first. I will be 39 weeks next week and I go back on Wednesday so just more waiting.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Takin Bets

First off, I hope all of you had an amazing Christmas day spent with family and however you spend it. Mine was wonderful and Matt spoiled me like he always does =) Family time was great and very relaxed just what this lady needed.

Now onto the bet! Actually there is no bet but with winter storm hitting us with a good douse of snow I was joking that Peanut was going to make her appearance during the storm. So, while there is no actual bet I am 38 weeks and she could come at any time so why not show up during a snow storm! This is really not that bad, they say it will be blizzard conditions but it is winter so I see no reason to get all excited. I would like to make a trip to the Kroger's and see how depleted the bread and milk areas are. This is the worst snow we have had in 2 years and my inner child is excited to see the snow. My mom has called twice to check on me at work to make sure I haven't left and to see how I have felt. I have felt ok, just the bowling ball between my legs and pressure. I have had some lower back pain but nothing that sticks around.

Don't worry though, you all will be kept in the loop!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

37 Weeks

So to be able to say that I am 37 weeks today just seems crazy to me. Peanut could literally come any day now and it would be okay. Obviously, I would like her to stay put till at least 39 weeks but she will do what she wants to do. Things are getting done just not at the pace I would prefer. I still have wall decorations for the nursery I want to hang, the room still needs swept and shampooed and there are more clothes to wash and find a place for. I don't know if we have everything we need and I'm sure we don't but it will all be okay I keep telling myself.

I have made a revised checklist of things that need to get done in the next 2 weeks. Included in that list is
1. Clean my car inside and out
2. Install car seat in my car
3. Put together Pack n Play and have that ready to go
4. Finish nursery
5. Finish packing my bag, Matt's items and baby items

This seems manageable to me. Also cleaning the house is always a part of that list. I feel like my house will never be clean enough though crazy yes I know.

We have our last prenatal class Thursday. It is all about baby care and breastfeeding. The hospital also has a lactation consultant that I can use should I need more assistance after which makes me feel better. I also have a pediatrician for her and I believe we have found a babysitter for when I go back to work.

I wasn't sure if I was going to say anything about the shooting because I have chose not to watch much of the news because I get way to emotional. I will say that my heart breaks for each and everyone of those parents and family members. Having a mom as a teacher this scenario did hit a little closer to home than I would have liked. Even in all this tragedy I don't think it is the time to make political statements about gun control. My honest opinion is no matter how hard you make it to get something, if someone really wants it they will find a way to get it.

Okay back to happy things. I did have another NST yesterday and she of course didn't want to cooperate at first but after some cold water she woke up and started moving and grooving. My blood pressure was up somewhat but he didn't seem concerned. I have another NST Friday and I will get checked too and then next week on Thursday we have an u/s to check her size. Matt went with me yesterday and he thought it was pretty cool getting to hear her moving around and hearing the kicks.

I hope you all have your Christmas shopping done! I am almost done except for a few small things and wrapping a lot of gifts! So if anyone wants to come help me wrap I would be eternally grateful!

Monday, December 10, 2012

The Good Ole Boys Club

In the agricultural community there is a big age gap. Which shouldn't be that big of a surprise given just how old the industry is. Since, there is this age gap there also tends to be a gender gap as well. This also should not come as a surprise to anyone. I have been involved with this industry my entire life and I have seen it all time and time again. Over time I have also realized that the only way it will change is as the older generation moves on and more and more young ones come in, especially women.

So what all that rambling is about is that basically because I am not a member of the good ole boys club I didn't get the promotion that I wanted. I looked right at my boss and told him that it sucked. Basically they want me to take over Dawn's (the boss who is leaving) responsibilities but give the title to C (another grain buyer who also happens to be the General Manager's pet). So needless to say I was beyond ticked on Friday and had a meltdown when I got home. Matt being Matt though just looked me square in the eye and said it will be fine. You have the support of a lot of the customers, Dawn will push her customers towards you and basically show them that you don't give a damn about a title. These are reasons why I love him! Office politics suck basically!

So I had all weekend to think about it and he was right. My #1 priority is the customer and retaining customers and that is what I will do. I will also keep repeating to myself that everyone retires eventually and things will change. They did say that I will be getting a company cell phone and a laptop so that I can be available and any time I work will just mean more time off with her.

Most importantly though, I have a little girl arriving in a few weeks and my life will change forever and for that I am eternally grateful.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Here, There and Everywhere

Have you ever had one of those weeks, starts off pretty normal and you are just ready for the weekend to get here because the to do list is a mile long? Yea, that is how my week started out but got turned upside down pretty darn quick on Wednesday.

First, I will start with the good of the week. My NST was very good, Peanut was very active without the aide of music or juice. I say it was the 5 Guys I had for lunch (yum yum!). My blood pressure was the lowest it has been in 3 weeks. I was also told I was doing awesome in the weight gain department. Next week is 36 weeks and the Dr. will start checking me. EEEKKK that just seems crazy!! The only real thing I want to get done yet in the nursery is install a ceiling fan, pick out crib bedding and vacuum and shampoo the carpet. I promise I will get pictures up soon.

Now onto the okay. We had our first prenatal class last night. I was actually a tad nervous because for starters I felt like we would be the oldest ones in there (we weren't). I was also somewhat nervous that it would be cancelled for whatever reason, (it wasn't). There were a total of 4 couples and we seemed to be all about the same age. There was one couple who was adopting and the birth mom and the birth mom's mom were all together. Not going to lie, the beginning was boring because we talked about nutrition, positions to sleep in, how to get in and out of a vehicle etc. Then came the breathing exercises. They seemed cheesy but I'm sure I won't be saying that when I actually need them. The second part though was when they talked about the stages of labor. First off, the women they used were cracking me up. It was hard not to laugh but as soon as class was over and we were on our way to dinner I thought I was going to pee my pants from laughing. Next week is our tour of the hospital and the third week is breastfeeding and baby care. Was it what I thought, not really but I like how it is super casual. I am excited for the tour because the hospital is brand new like a year or two old and I hear the rooms are amazing! Another perk of being from a small town, there usually aren't too many patients in the ob department so hopefully it won't be chaotic.

Now onto the bad. My boss is leaving at the end of the year. She is more than a boss though, she has been a mentor to me the last 3 years I have been at my job. When they hired me, I had zero experience in the grain industry but they took a chance on me anyways. She also has become a friend. She listened to my stories about my crazy family, even crazier in laws, Matt and being a farm wife and she was so supportive and understanding when it came to IF. She never once made a big deal about me needing off for appointments and was super understanding when my hormones were crazy. So, the tears flowed but I am happy for her too. She is taking on a position that she feels will challenge her. She will still be in the grain industry and she will still be coming to Ohio at times. Like Matt said, we will still talk, there is always facebook and texting and he is right. A big part of me know that it won't be the same, but I am trying to look at the positives. I knew this day would come eventually but I just wasn't expecting it so soon. The timing also sucks basically because she is done at the end of the year and I am too. I wish I was going to be here for that transition period or that it was happening after I was back but that is just how the cookie crumbles. Her leaving also opens up a big opportunity for advancement for me which I knew would only come if she left or took a different position. Me being me though, I'm just afraid of failing which both Matt and she has said that I won't. That this is the push I need to stand on my own two feet and step out of her shadow. I have requested a meeting with my other boss to let him know my thoughts and even though I will be on maternity leave when I come back I want the position and just some things that I will need from him. That was a scary email to send so hopefully we can meet up and figure some things out.

But hey today is Friday and I do have a busy weekend ahead of me! Presents to wrap, a tree to put up, baking cookies and packing my hospital bag. We also need to finish up Christmas shopping so I'm hoping to get that done on Saturday evening. Kind of makes me tired just thinking about all of it!