Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Still Waiting...

So I'm still waiting for the results from my blood work that I had done last week. We are also waiting for the results of Matt's SA from a week ago. I think the worst part during this wait is knowing that once I get the results we get to start on this journey, a journey to find some answers and hopefully bring us a baby. I am not a patient person, (ask Matt he will agree 100%), and to not be calling the doctor yesterday and today is a pretty good for me. However, tomorrow if AF doesn't show up, which I'm thinking she won't cause that is how my body rolls, I am going to call and get a prescription for provera so we can get the ball rolling. I've never taken provera and I am kind of nervous because I already feel like I am dying during AF, I'm scared to see what provera will do to me. But hey what doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

When it comes to the weight loss, I made a goal to refocus and it paid off, because I broke through the mini plateau I had going on. Not sure what made me lose focus, some changes at work (all good though), Matt's work and I guess life in general.  Those shouldn't be reasons or excuses because they are always there. I need to not let those things keep me from being focused on my goals.

Happy Valentines day everyone, I'm not a big fan of the day just because I feel that it has gotten to commercialized maybe is the word I'm looking for. I would rather Matt show up on some random day with flowers just because, not on a day when he feels like he HAS to buy them. But for those who love this day, I hope you got to spend it with your valentine and mine is sleeping on the couch. Yup we are old and married.

So this post was kind of all over the place and I'm sorry for that, thats how my brain gets sometimes when I'm trying not to think about things. I think Laura called it a brain dump, yea this was definetly a brain dump.


  1. Brain dump away, girl! I hope you get a call with results soon, but don't feel bad about calling to check. I've never had to take Provera, but hopefully it just brings on CD1 and doesn't make it worse. That would suck! I don't think you should feel bad about the weight loss thing. You have a lot going on, but your goal is still there! You can do it, maybe just not all at the same time :)

  2. Waiting is always the hardest part! I mean, Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers even wrote a song about it, right? Hoping for good results from your tests and your husband's!

  3. Provera was a cinch! I seem to remember that it takes something like 3 days to begin your cycle after you stop taking it. Be patient! I flipped out about not having it on the morning of day 3, but it came that afternoon.

    Andrew made dinner for me, we snuggled and then he went to play his Star Wars (I've had it up to here with Star Wars) game. Married couples are soooooooo romantic, no?